Monday, July 18, 2016
Monday, July 18, 2016
Today's Horoscope (Libra): Sing the songs that remind you of the good times.
Daytime
I've decided to try to get some reading done. I feel completely wrung-out, but I...
I just need to try to get back to normal. Back to...
What was I like before Flash came into my life?
...I can't remember...
There's a knock on my door. "Twilight?"
It's Pinkie...
Without waiting for me to answer, she comes in. Sonata is with her. I look up. "Girls..."
Pinkie sits down on the desk. Sonata leans against the wall.
"Twilight," Pinkie says sadly, "stop this, okay? Stop hiding. Come back to us. This isn't healthy."
"I'm not hiding! I just—"
"Yes you are," Pinkie says. "You're hurt and you're scared and you're hiding."
"Well...! Yes, I'm hurt! So what?"
"So you can't curl up into a ball and hide every time somebody hurts you," Pinkie says. "You think I haven't been hurt? Not just by this, but...well..." She looks down. "You know what I've been through."
"And what I've been through," Sonata whispers.
I wince. "Oh god..."
"If we can go on living and smiling after what we've been through, so can you," Pinkie says. Then, in a softer voice, she adds, "Besides...we're not giving up on you and Flash getting back together."
I feel an ice cold wall slam down on my feelings. "No."
"Twilight..."
"NO!" I stand up and clench my fists. "He...!"
"Yes, he got mad at you and did what Cadance used to do to your brother!" Pinkie yells. "It goes both ways, Twilight. You think nobody here heard the way you screamed at him that one day? For what?"
"For...!" I stop short.
"For..."
Pinkie sighs. "You're not the only victim here," she says. "And...and for what it's worth? Flash is tearing himself up pretty bad over what happened." She gives me a pleading look. "Just...just think about it, okay? You shouldn't..." She sighs. "You still love him, I know you do. And he still loves you. One fight..."
"He's a good person," Sonata says softly. "Think about everything he's done for all of us." She looks me right in the eyes. "Don't throw all that away."
I sit back down hard, all the anger draining out of me. "But..."
Pinkie shakes her head. "Just...think really hard about what you really want," she says. "Making up with him is worth..." She trails off. "Just...just don't make a mistake here, alright?"
They leave. I sit at my desk for a long time, thinking. After a while, I decide to get out of the dorm for a few hours to get some fresh air.
Wandering around town, I end up stopping at a lot of places I used to go with Flash. I find myself thinking about good times we've had together...
I stop by the bookstore out of habit, but don't buy anything. I stop off to get a burger from a place I'm not really that fond of, then head back to the dorm. Everybody's watching TV or playing games or doing whatever they like to do. I decide to turn in early and end up lying in bed thinking for a couple of hours. It's dark by the time I finally fall asleep...
